x-mas 2010

the sweetest of us, gabriel =)

Our christmas started already on thursday, 23.12 with something that's called julbord (christmasfood :P ) at johannas place, I was entertaining gabbe while greger and johannna took care of the dinner, and I have to say it was a lot ! couldn't move afterwards.. Not use to have so much food for christmas in germany, so I tried a lot of new things ;)

So totally filled up I had to relax on the sofa before we continued with the dessert ;) I'm not quite sure anymore but we probably watched a movie before greger and I went home to open our x-mas presents right after midnight ;) we watched another movie until we fell asleep and went to bed around 3am :-P we planned to go to sth in the church next day (24th dec.) 7am (!!!). why does something start 7am?? crazy..
anyway, we got dressed with a lot of clothes cause it was around -25°, on our way out we met a neighbour but he said its tomorrow.. -.-" don't blame me, I've never been there, greger said it was that day :P So we went to johanna instead to eat breakfast, dont think she was so happy do wake up around 7.30, but we actually went all back to bed/sofa. about one hour later we had breakfast ;)
After that she left with gabriel to visit her family in umeå and we went to pick up tobias and rebecca, after that we went to the city (skellefteå) to celebrate x-mas with gregers brother and his daughter

 

tv addicted? ;)

First we had lunch before we opened the presents, after that we visited baccas and tobbes grandparents which also live there. We had some sweets and cookies before we went back to his brother for dinner :-P I probably put on several kilos ;) (and that was only the beginning of all that food ;) later that evening we had a lot of wine and beer, cookies, chips and so on =) it was a nice day, very funny and I enjoined, even got a present from becca, so sweet =) Went home around 3am cause the kids were off to finland with her mother and husband to celebrate there as well. Greger and I continued sleeping until 3pm ;) then some tv and off to johanna again for food =D she left to meet some friends then so we were just sitting there being tired (well, he was playing computer ;)

In the evening we first went out to a houseparty before leaving for the x-mas party in the "Medan". Its funny I have to say if I compare it with parties in my hometown, well, its a big city and Norsjö is just a small town ;) Anyway, we had some more drinks, met a lot of people and when it was over around 1am we picked up Johanna from the other x-mas party at the hotel before we went back to watch some SG1 before falling asleep..

A bit tired the next day (26.12) we didn't do much honestly, had a calm day before having dinner with gregers sister and family, played some playstation and had a nice get-together, went home after that, watched a movie, now blogging and soon bed I think,  time for the serious stuff tomorrow again before 2011, actually dont wanna think about all I have to do =( 

Well then, have to say I had a nice christmasweekend with my beloved, thank you all =)

 

A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be.

Got the best surprise ever yesterday =) When I came home from Hapkido training I had a package and I was really surprised cause I didn't expect any package and espacially not here because I'm not at home. So my sweet friend Anne who's in Stockholm right now sent me that package =) Great isn't it? Cheez doodles for me (yeah ok I admit it, I really love them :-P ), Toffifee for those who take care of me at the moment and support me, some more chocolate for me and a candle stick for christmas mood that I don't have at all. Sweet isn't it? I'm so happy to have so many friends that really care about me and support me, I almost cried haha :-P Really something I needed after all that shit and some stupid conversations today.. Thanks Anne, really happy about it, love you girl :-*

So that was yesterday..Now we only have 2 days left, crazy isn't it?
Yeah well, today.. As usually (at the moment at least) I couldn't sleep the night, guess I really fell asleep around 5 or 6am :-/ before that I wake up like ever 15/30 minutes :-( So I'm tired alll day and don't really manage any studies, that really annoys me.. So I got out of bed around 10:00, cleaned up a bit and started to study while waiting for Greger coming home for lunch. After that I followed him to work, we (ok, he :P) installed a dishwasher and a stove, then we bought some pizza for dinner and i took care of gabbe and joel ;) while he was out for a last job he had to do today.
But Gabriel was not really eager to sleep, so he was still awake when johanna came home from work around 10pm. After that we all watched a movie "IP man" and had chips :-P
Now its past midnight and I'm home again, will go to sleep now cause I'm going to meet a friend tomorrow =)

<3

statistics

checked my statistics for thev very first time I have to say and am impressed that people all over the world at least looked at my blog :P
ok yeah, most of them are from Sweden and Germany, then America, Canada and Denmark, but I was surprised by several invocations from Czech, Peru, Croatia and Russia =D how funny is that? xD

the most invocations got my entry "a real man doesn't love a million girls, he loves one girl a in a million ways..
and today my blog got 32 invocations !! :-O

impressive :) nice to know I have to say =) thanks for reading my blog, leave a comment if you like ;)

a new week

greger was probably bored :P

Woke up 10:30 cause I actually had an appointment 11:00 but he called me and said me I should come tomorrow again :-P I was so tired cause I couldn't really sleep that night, fell asleep around 3:30 and woke up again cause I dreamt something about babies, lol. So I went back to bed, thought I could sleep at least maybe one hour.. woke up around 3pm cause greger came =D So we spent some time home, visited his sister and after that he took me out for dinner :) So totally filled up we bought some chips and movies, watched two of them. First "kung fu hustle" and after that "V for Vendetta". Both very good, the first one very funny and the last one was just good even if I didn't see the whole movie cause Greger was very eager to show me some pressure points !!! Now I've got bruises, great xD but he showed me so I could actually defend myself hehe ;) But I still like him ;) Really love to spend time with him =) But when you're in love, make sure that you don't forget your friends <3

Ok so after some wonderful hours I skyped with one of my beloved cousins and had fun as always =) miss her, a lot <3 hope that I have money for visiting some of my family and friends next summer, I was in berlin summer'09, 3 weeks and it was terrific! just as always. :-* 

Christmas is coming closer, only 4 days left, can you imagine?? And I do not really feel like x-mas at all this year :-/ But we'll have fun, sure about that =) will celebrate with greger, his kids and his brother, one day we'll celebrate at the norsjö hotel,  lot of cosiness, just how its gotta be <3 So looking forward I have to say, even if I don't really feel like x-mas but it will me days with beloved people, and our first x-mas together, feels kinda good I have to say =)

Ok then, I say good night now, or should I eat more? :-P hmm, we still have cheez doodles ;)
*snowing all day and around -17° today*

sunday, sunday, lazy sunday..

didn't do much today as you probably can imagine. woke up around 12:00 becca kinda 30minutes later, I shoveled some snow, had a shower and brought becca to a friend, the volvo didn't die =D
After that, yeah well, I had late lunch, washed my clothes, studied and actually just wanted to relax a couple of minutes but I fell asleep around 6pm and woke up one hour later cause someone called me xD

So now I'm sitting here, totally tired and wonder if I should go back to sleep or if I should watch a movie? But it will probably be a movie, feels wrong to go to bed now, a early sunday evening ;) heard that there's a good movie tonight 9pm, so I have to think of something to do the last hour.. I could.. cuddle the dogs.. but I guess I'll eat something :-P

So, that was my short sunday, now only some days left and then its x-mas, time is fleeting :-/

friday and saturday

tried to solve problems today but it didn't really work, so sick of all these people that are not able to do their job *grrr* anyway, I'll somehow manage it and I'm glad to have people around me that help =) <3

In the afternoon I met my boyfriend, we had dinner with his sister and family, after that training again, was very funny today, we played rugby quite a while and it doesn't help to be fast there cause we're playing it inside so on our knees, otherwise I'd be much better :-P
After that we went home to take a long and hot bath, you really feel every single muscle haha
After that a calm evening infront of the tv with becca as well, then whisky at the neighbours place (well, wine for me :-P ) and 5 very big dogs haha :-P

We went to bed 4 am and I have to say that I'm really tired now :-P
I was lucky saturday morning (well it was about lunch time ;) but anyway I got breakfast in bed, that was nice =) really happy, got the feeling that I found someone very special <3

After that another soft day ;) hey its weekend, so stop complaining, I'm working hard monday to..thursday :-P
Later that afternoon we had a coffee break (well, tea time sounds better cuz there was nothing to have a break ;) with my mother, even if we had some problems to get there, stupid volvo didn't wanna work :-P

curly hair =D

back home again i started to have a girls night with becca, just the two of us-and the dogs ;)
So you can probably imagine, lots of sweets and a movie =) now she even got curly hair, looks good, very sweet =) lateron we skyped with my dad and my cousins for some hours, becca could train her german and my family swedish :-P
so thats what girls do when they're alone =D
Now we're sitting infront of the tv, still a lot of sweets left but we have some hours left as well ;) even if I start to be really tired right now, will probably go to bed soon, gotta study tomorrow =)

otherwise we hav -13° and a LOT of snow, it snowed the last 3 days and it doesn't seem to have an end :-(

Anyway, good night world!

stupid office sitters

tried to solve my problem today but nope, they probably didn't really feel like helping me, I dunno why I even had an appointment today, they could have told me directly that they cannot help me, so typical for local authorities..

Yeah after that disappointment I went to see Johanna, was out for a walk with her and Gabbe, ofc it had to snow today as well, but we were lucky and had at least only -4°
So walking and having a chat, was a while ago I have to say, but had a lot to do these past weeks..
Had lunch with her and Greger, he's gotta new haircut since yesterday, johanna did it ;) looks good indeed, but I like it when the hair is a bit longer and normaly I think guys look a bit..weird :-P when they just had a haircut ;)
But don't get me wrong, he still looks good haha ;)
Greger gave me a ride home, before that we picked up a laptop and I was stunning when this guy suddenly started with german haha :-P

Didn't do much more today, don't feel like studying but I guess I've gotta do it tomorrow then ;)
Now I have even bigger problems, 400 games on that x-box LOL
But I guess that I'll go to bed soon, have two dogs here that wanna have my company, me like =)
Tomorrow hapkidotraining and then some time with Greger this weekend, just the two of us <3

one wish..

if i could have just one wish,

i would wish to wake up every day,

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine..

knowing that i could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.

tuesday

and another birthday =D today its my grandfathers 81.birthday (my dads father) so congrats !! ;)
there'll be a big b-day party in berlin this weekend with family and friends and where am I? the cold north, studying :-/

woke up around 10:00 and fell asleep again haha, so I woke up again around 12:00 cause someone asked me if I wanna sleep all day =D could be because of all the stress right now or just because of that wonderful bed ;)
but as I said, still stressed but I have to say I actually could not feel better concerning certain things at least.. So after trotting out of my bed to eat something I continued studying as usual, had several cops of tea, food and tried to fix my stupid internet, took almost 2hrs and I was quite.. lets say annoyed !!
Glad that Johanna stopped by to ask if I wanna follow, Greger and the kids where there too so he forced me to eat with them as well (and I just had dinner at home :-P so you can imagine how filled up I was when we left for training ;) but that was over quite soon, really enjoy training, especially doing something at all, always liked martial arts but never..yeah, did it :-P But its never too late ;)

After that I watched a movie with greger and johanna, sorry but I already forgot the name of the movie haha, it was not that bad but I was more busy with eating popcorn, chips, chocolate and all these other stuff lol. But I remember what it was about, don't think that I wouldn't ;)

So now I'm at home, laying in my bed and am actually on my way to sleep, hope I wont wake up that late tomorrow as well =D really need to do things !!

Good night everyone!!
I see you on the dark side of the moon

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weather: this week it was kinda cold, around -20 up to -26° but sunny..
saw that its gonna be "warmer" and snow in the end of the week..

just another manic monday.. 13.12.2010

today its my fathers birthday, 50 yrs!! congrats old man ;-) unfortunately I cannot be there because of a lot of work for university and my biggest problem is that I don't have money for this either because I've just been in germany for my grandparents golden wedding :-/ but one thing you have to know dady, we'll rock your 60. b-day, thats for sure =D

Studied hard today, reading my boring books until my sweetheart (trying to find other words for boyfriends cause it sounds weird, if you know sth tell me =D ) tried to scare my while suddenly jumping into my room :-P was listening to music as well so I didn't hear him coming either ;)
Had dinner then and talked about everything possible, he showed me some of his female facebook friends in case I'd worry about all his young female facebookfriends, I didn't even think about it that way lol and I don't think that I have to worry either ;-) But I'm lucky to have someone who's honest, something a lot of people don't really care about anymore but honesty and trust are the most important things in a relationship =)

So this week will be.. hm, dunno, I'll probably study, then training as usual, cuddle-evening infront of the tv after training with Greger tomorrow and then I'll help Johanna to move to her new appartment =)

Chatted with a close friend today, really miss her :-/
Now I'll continue facebooking before I go to bed, good night! =)

weekend

On friday I finally got some off my stuff so I could continue working with my things from university but I have to say that I didnt really felt like doing sth friday afternoon so I decided to do.. nothing :-P In the evening I visited Johanna before it was time to train some hapkido again, I did my nails *lol* you may think thats weird but I actually just did sth so that it wont hurt during the training, they were quite long :D
Hapkido as usual, you feel every single muscle, especially if you didn't really do anthing the past 2 yrs besides walking, jogging or inline-skating with  the dogs ;-)
We trained some technics, how to fall without hurting yourself and how to make your across from you fall :-P We even played rugby, not normal rugby, but rugby, so thats something I like =D

On saturday I tried to study a bit more but it ended up drawing and solving some sudoku's but at least I did sth ;)
The evening did I spend with Greger, we visited his father and girlfriend and then a friend of him from stockholm stopped by to have a couple of beers before he fell asleep on the couch =D

On sunday we were all a bit... tired :-P but I was awake when little gabriel started to slobber on me haha =D After that we (means Johanna, Gabbe, Becca, Greger and my humble self :-P) went to Skellefteå to help Gregers sister moving from her appartment to a house, later that evening we noticed that we didn't eat anything at all since yesterday evening, so we had some burgers and french fries for dinner.

So a nice and calm weekend with tasty food, new people and fun =)
Soon its time for x-mas, even if I actually don't really feel like it, maybe I'll stay at home to study, enough to do anyway :-P

tuesday_hapkido

Had a funny afternoon 'cuz I tried a sport called hapkido today, its a korean martial art, and my boyfriend is the trainer so he convinced me to join, really enjoyed it =)
He was though the onlyone that got hurt hehe, so now he's got a notch above his right eye ;) he always reckon that he's Jet Li but I'm not really convinced I have to say ;)

After that we went home to take a shower and watched a movie, well we tried at least, was not really sth good on tv so I decided to hit him with pillows, way more fun =D
Could even sleep a bit better after all that what happened these past days, he embraced me all night and it felt good to have someone close these days =) Really enjoy being with him <3

So far I don't have muscle ache but will see when I get it, at least he'll have it first ;-P
Looking forward to the next training, they have it 3times a week, its good to do sth else now where I can forget all these thoughts for one moment and just have fun =) On friday I'll beat up his son =D

weekend

had a good weekend I have to say, spent my time with greger and kids, felt a bit like being "mother" haha because johanna worked so the youngest was with us all the time =) a really sweet one I have to say, love kids =) maybe the reason why I'm becoming a teacher? ;-)
But he didn't sleep so much, he woke up quite often but so are toddlers ;-)

So in the evening we were invited at his mothers place for dinner, was very good and very enjoyably (enjoyably?)
The rest of the time I tried to study for my exam I have monday to friday, then I played playstation with tobbe and had a quite calm weekend with my beloved.


Happy to have people around me that really like me and care about me <3

random

really sick of this boring books, how can you even write something like this? and who wants to read it??? I don't I have to say but unfortunately I have to :( not so much left, only one book and a few pages of the otherone, will try to read as much as possible today so that I can spend the weekend with my darling before the exam next week.

Was not so cold these past days I have to say, we had only around -6° and the same snow left, not that much either but ok by me :-P just not so easy to get out with the dogs and sledge so thats not sooo good but I'll survive I guess ;) Its worse in germany, they have up to -18° and a lot of snow, unbelievable, they always tell me I live at the northpol and now? Look at you haha, colder and more snow in germany as in the north (!) of sweden..

Will be in Arvidsjaur for my mothers birthday, guess it will be fun or I at least hope so haha :D
I actually don't like the christmas time, so many presents you have to buy and unfortunately a lot of my friends and family do even celebrate thier birthday around x-mas :( It's especially hard to buy something for men, I'd always find something for female friends and family but men? Out of ideas :( So if you have ideas let me know ;) I don't have money, but I can give love and company haha :D

So as I already said exam next week and after that a dear friend of mine who is in Stockholm right now will visit me for some days :) really looking forward to this, will be fun and there's finally someone visiting me besides my dad *lol*. Well, I guess I moved too far north ;) But I like it =) and I wouldn't have met certain people I really care about =) And I do not only talk about guys :-D But friends, very kind and sweet friends =) Sure I miss my friends in germany a lot, but I know they're always there for me, doesn't matter how far away I am :) I don't see them that often but it feels good to know that they're there for me when I need them and I give the same in return :) Since I moved here you really know which friends are true friends and who of them was just "there" for a short moment, you don't care that much about these kind of people, I don't need to have superficial friends..
But its a pity with some of them. People you thought were close all the time, people that always cared and listened and suddenly they disappear without reason.. No answers when you send messages, no time for you, always "busy".. That's the thing that hurts most. When you thought to have a true friend that just pop off from one day to the other..
Seems like I have a bad insight into human nature or they're just perfect actors.. Such a shame.. Especially if you really like them and thought they feel the same..
But life goes on and they're just not worth it, as I said, I have friends that really care <3

studying

Oh boy, the first two books where quite ok, but the last two books.. well, they really look boring from the beginning, small text, a lot of text and no pictures =D the otherone was better, a lot of pictures so less text and actually not that boring. And because of my lack of time I decided to use colourful post-it's ;) so I skip to write it down, even if that would be much better but as I said, not so much time, two books with 250 pages each (and really boring as I already mentioned) and 4 days left, beside that I have to do sth else as well and want to have at least one day with my beloved this week. So actually not that much here, I hardly leave my bed, just for food and other needs. Its way more comfortable to read here and I don't have to write anything down beside some notes where I find certain things. Ok then, off to work again :(

Some love lasts a lifetime. True love lasts forever.

But what is love? The feeling of a stong affection? A personal attachment?
Love is so complex with all that feelings involved that makes it even more difficult to really find a clear answer..
And how do you actually know that you're in love? Can you always tell? Can you differentiate between a very strong feeling and true love? Is it even possible nowadays to really find true love?

"True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

But to love somebody and to be loved is the greatest thing you can experience, so if you really find true love, then you're really lucky. Love can last a lifetime, but true love lasts forever.

Unfortunately does it happen way too often that you get dissapointed, and once you have these feeling inside of you, of this disillusion you can lose faith and hope..
But don't give up, keep on searching, there will be someone for you, somewhere out there, but be sure that it's the right thing you do. Don't get yourself through something just because you feel lonely or left behind.
And even to like somebody is something different.
The feeling of love is much stronger. Take your time, time to trust, time to find a way back into love, into real love. Don't listen to others, listen to your heart. What does it tell you? Do you feel good? Does it feel right?

And if you find that special someone-hold on to him. You will know that its him.
Let him become a part of your life, let him make you smile, let him make you feel good and give that in return.
But be carefull with your heart; and always remember:
Love does not exist, but it can grow..

was it love, or was it the idea of being in love?
or was it the hand of fate,

that seemed to fit just like a glove?
the moment slipped by and soon the seeds were sown
the year grew late

and neither one wanted to remain alone 

Pink Floyd "one slip"

thank you..

for making me smile every day

<3 <3 <3

hardworking dogs

After my exam I visited the school I had my practical course, the kids were very happy and wanted me to stay a bit longer. It was quite cold today, -19° but sunny.
When I went home a had lunch and then out with the dogs, I took the big sledge for the first time, Finouk was too young last year and Kira was not really eager to pull me alone. So now I have two grown up dogs, willing to pull me through the impressive winter landscape. The sledge is very easygoing and not too heavy for the dogs, really enjoyable I have to say =) We started to train with the little sledge a while ago so we took it slow today with that one, returned after one hour. Finouk is a hardowrking dog and always eager to run all the time while kira just stops running when she's tired.

So here you can see that she didn't wanna pull me anymore ;-) But I guess she was not so happy because Finouk didn't wanna pull her as well so even Kira had to walk home ;-)
Now both of them are sleeping, looking forward to continue tomorrow but now off to my books again, always a lot to do ;-)

once upon a time

 I was born in Rostock, a city in the north of germany, around 200.000 inhabitants if you care ;) So not such a small town.. On these two pictures you see my dad and my mother, and as you already can imagine- the sweet little girl is me =D

I lived all my life in that city and enjoyed my childhood, it happened quite often these past couple of weeks that I was just laying in my bed, thinking about the past =)

I used to do a lot in my spare time, I went riding most of the time, about 7years, I was swimming for a couple of years and I danced standard dance 6yrs, after that one year jazz. I even played guitarr for 6 years so as you can see, I did a lot of things ;-) We used to travel a lot so I've seen a lot of the world already in young years.

my favorite horse rowdy =)

Then I didn't do anything at all for a while before I started to play rugby, I kinda start to forget things lol, but as far as I can remember did I start it when I was 14 ? Funny thing, my coach was my french teacher, he talked a lot about rugby and I was interested in doing sth else so I started with rugby =) Not that girly as the rest I did before ;-)

When I moved to sweden I didn't have the time or possibilities to do anything, I used to swim with a friend from time to time but it was a while ago and now she just got her first child so I guess I've gotta wait a while =D But I found sth else I enjoy, I'm out with my dogs very much, about 2hrs every day if I'm not lazy ;-) Winter is great, after jogging and inline-skating with them in autumn I just sit on my slegde now and let them pull me ;-)

Yeah well, I just felt like writing something about myself, most of you know me how I am now, but especially the people I got to know the last two years do not know so much about me from my past =)

the four crazy kids you see there are me and my cousins ;-) they live in Berlin and I really miss all of them =) I got to see them from time to time but as you probably can imagine I dont meet them quite often, nobody from germay, I live way to far north lol =D

weekend

I am a bit stressed at the moment because I have quite much to do for university, exam on monday and then I have to read 4books for my exam at home from 6.12-10.12. :-( I missed a lot while I was sick so I even have to do other small tasks that I have to hand in as well.
But it will be quite calm when I come in that course that I want to come in first next semester in january so I really hope that it works =)

Besides studying I had a great weekend, I was outside with the dogs and slegde, weather was sunny and cold, around -18° by now but ok for me, its a differend sort of cold as it is in germany, its not so humidly.

The rest of the weekend did I spend with my boyfriend greger and his kids rebecca and tobias. Yesterday we had dinner with one of his friends, an elk terrine, very tasty ! The dessert was good as well, some cake with mintchocolate and some alcoholic drinks =D
Johanna picked us up to drive us home (way too long ago that I met her, really need to do that soon!) and then we played singstar, I started to sing with tobias but then his voice flopped because of his cold so he decided to play computer instead ;) After that becca, greger and I were singing before we started to play Tekken, one of my favorite games when I was younger so that was really long ago that I did that :)
  After a second kind of dinner around 1am we started to watch a movie while snuggling but decided to go to bed then and had a really nice chat about everything possible-until 5am ;-) before we fell asleep.

I can really say that I like him very much and enjoy every minute we spend together even if we both have a lot to do at the moment but things will calm down after a while and the stress around us will be gone or at least it will be not as much as it is right now.
A lot of people are not really happy about us being together because of the agedifference but I dont care, it's got to feel right and it really does, so many things I like about him and so glad that his family seems to like me as well, especially for kids can it be very hard when their parents have a new parter, and especially when they are not much older as the kids, and even the other way around, not everybody can get along with the kids.
But I like them and enjoy being with them as well, I'm just looking forward that this will work and as I said it just feels good and right so I'm really affirmatory =)

Ok then, off to my studies again, wish me luck tomorrow, 8am !

found some funny glasses at my dads place =D

todays weather: sunny, -13° and some snow so that it cover the landscape, but not so much actually

Germany, November 2010 (continuation)

As you probably can imagine I did not only went to germany to celebrate my grandparents golden wedding, I took the chance to meet friends and family even if the time there was quite short.


So after I finished my exam I went to Jena for one night to visit a friend, funny circumstances cause we never really met even if we know each other for 3 yrs now =D So I had a really nice time with him, another funny fact is that he's swedish :-P
Amazing was also that we had +20° the next day while the others back home in sweden had around -20° :-P
Imagine to sit on the roof terrace with sun and 20 plus in the morning, not so bad I have to say ;)

view from håkans roof terrace in jena

 

 

 

When I left the next day I met my old friend Lisa in Leipzig, she moved there with her boyfriend to study, we went to school together and she's one of my closest friends :) we had some coffee (well, I dont drink coffee, so it was hot chocolate instead :-P ) and talked a lot, after some hours I continued my journey homewards to grandma, about 45minutes from Leipzig, on my way home Greger called so we talked almost all the way home :) he called me sometimes and we met on msn almost every day so it was a bit easier, still missed him quite a lot :) But I guess I have to say sorry, dont wanna see the bill, its not that cheap to call from sweden to germany on a cell phone :-P bit it was nice to hear his voice :)

The next day we left grandmas place to travel back to sweden, on our way we had a short and pleasant stay at my aunt and cousins place for lunch, the dogs were quite excited, so was one of my cousins and he was cuddling with them all the time :D

martin, one of my 3 cousins ;)

me and gabi ;)

Unfortunately we didn't have much time so after some hours we continued our journey to Rostock, my beautiful hometown from where we took the ferry to sweden again, but first I visited my dad of course, and my (however you say it in english) schwip-cousin Gabi :-P So she's actually my cousins cousin..
It was fun, we watched movies, had some wine and good food, we tried to be a band but it turn out to be a bad idea, we should just let my dad play his guitarr and the rest :-P but it was fun anyway ;)

Unfortunately I got sick, fever and a cold after that so the trip home to the north of sweden was not pleasurable =( actually planned to vstop by two more friends in sweden but we skipped that to get home as soon as possible where I continued with some fever and a cold :(

But now I'm on my way to feel better again so I can continue with my studies =) Had a great time in germany, even if it was way too short but I'm glad to meet at least some of you, have way too many friends lol ;-)

hugs and kisses to all of you <3

gabi and my dad playing guitarr :-P

parking space for women ;)

the right thing..

 

Take time to listen to your heart.
Sometimes you need not to ask yourself
Who you really love most,
But ask yourself who really makes you happy
And who makes you feel loved.

Study...study...stud...stdy...sty...stfa...sfa...face...facebo...facebook

ok, exam tomorrow and tuesday, really tried to read that stupid book that I only have as pdf so not really sth I like. And its so b.o.r.i.n.g ! I really don't know what I'm actually reading ! Anway, will work tomorrow (I hope) =D Cannot really focus I have to say, a lot of things are disturbing like yeah, facebook :-P and some thoughts I have on my mind all the time..

Well didn't really do other things this weekend, had still a lot of food left and some nice video chats today and yesterday evening so that was really nice :) feels directly better to see certain persons that are so far away :) but I'll be home soon :) <3 amazing how time is actually fleeting but sometimes it just stands still..

Even if I have to study a lot here I still have some time left to think without much around me, and it's an amazing feeling to have some who really miss you and you didn't realize before how intense this feeling can be before you're that far away, was very long ago I had that feeling in that extent..

And to be married 50 years.. just amazing, I guess nobody in this generation can manage this, most of the peoples relationship doesn't even last 10 years anymore.. Its kinda sad actually but I guess thats just the way it is.. Its different now.. even if I saw a lot of things, I still don't give up, there is one true love for everybody out there, a love that can last a lifetime <3

grandma's and grandpa's golden wedding 05.11.2010

So here we go, grandma's and grandpa's golden wedding, it was amazing how much food we actually had !
In the morning the mayor came over to congratulate so we had some food and coffee and talked about the good old times =D A little while after that we had lunch (so unnecessary !) before we watched a movie to relax a bit. My grandma was already nervous but it got worse later ;-)

  

Around 2pm arrived the ordered wedding cake, even if it doesn't really look like a cake when they came with it, it looks more like some kind of bomb =D
anyway, have to say that we didn't even eat half of the part above :D But it was very tasty though. So now we'll probably eat it every day and give it even to other people that visited us later that evening, otherwise it would just stand there ;) or we just save some for the next wedding day :D Even better, the untouched part can we save for my wedding =D Haha no better not, guess it will take a while before I get married ;)

So all of us where sitting there, totally filled up with cake and wondered how we should eat all the other stuff in the evening, cause we ordered some more food ;)
So the other guy came with it around 5pm and I have to say 1kg cheese is quite much ! same with the rest :D So again, way too much food but at least we had some more people to help us with it. Here some more impressions, I'm still not really hungry and slept kinda all day even if I have to study for my exam on monday =D So enjoy the pictures and think about 50yrs of marriage, don't think its possible nowadays, you can be happy if a couple manage 10yrs !!

miss you..

as i sit with little to do, 

my mind is filled with thoughts of you. 

as I work hard throughout the day, 

I miss your smile that's miles away. 

as I lay down and try to sleep, 

its memories of you I always keep. 

you must know this, my love so true. 

I spend all my time missing you. 

germany

On saturday we left norsjö to travel to germany for grandmas golden wedding, but before that we went to friends on sunday, the family I lived with when I was in sweden before I moved, so that was fun I can say! Incredible how time is fleeting, kids are already grown up (well, I remember when they were 3 and 5 yrs, now they're 10 and 8 and the little girl is soon 4yrs, I remember when Frida was pregnant with her and it feels like yesterday !

Unfortunately we had rain all the time and it was quite stormy the last day on our last part with the ferry, so typical, Finouks first long trip with ferry and everything else and it was stormy :D but she did quite well, slept very good but was very observing all the time. The rest of the trip was ok, as you can see my dogs always sleeping comfortable in the back seat ;)
So we arrived yesterday evening (wed.) after a short stop in my hometown rostock where I even got a new haircut :D Use to have quite curly hair but that looks not bad I have to say :) Bought a new cell phone as well, actually my x-mas present but I'm already using it :D Its a LG-GS290 in case you care ;)

So tomorrow we'll have the golden wedding, we'll have a lot of food and way to much cake I can say!
Bye for now, I have to continue studying, exam on monday :D

fun fun fun

today I really had the best day at university, no lectures (well ok one this morning, but I woke up too late so I missed it :D ) only "practical" things if you can say so. We had music, art and drama were we actually had fun all the time, especially drama where I couldn't stop laughing with tears in my eyes for 20minutes, I even had to leave the room cause I probably would have died :D all Emmas fault-yes i blame you ;) cause in the end there was actually no reason to laugh about, I just had to look at Emma how she tried not to laugh (don't ask me why, I have no clue what she thought was so funny) and it was just so contagious haha I'm still laughing :-D

So this was the last day at university for this week, tomorrow I'll travel homewards to fix some stuff and then off to germany with our little nissan micra :D but no snow so far at least in härnösand so thats good. On sunday we'll finally visit Frida and the kids again, where I lived when I was in sweden for school 2005/2006 so that will be fun that too :)

On wednesday I'll finally be in germany for my grandparents golden wedding, its on friday so I have time to relax after that trip and then I have to study because I have an exam the monday after :D will be fun- NOT :D

Ok then, now dinner and a movie, lateron I'll skype with my cousin, was a while ago that as well but I'll soon see her on my way back to sweden when we pass berlin :)  yearning ! looking forward to meet my family and some of my friends again, but I will be happy to get back to sweden again just as much as I'm looking forward to germany, cause someone is waiting for me up here :) <3

update

sorry, very busy at the moment or just too lazy ;-)

this weekend I had (wine marinated) elk steak for the very first time and it was gooood, even if I actually don't like venison :.p unfortunately was this weekend way too short, now I am in Härnösand again to have lectures and then off to germany for grandmas golden wedding :) really looking forward to it, will be fun even if I already miss the people up here :-/

But missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will.. :-)

So, I'll be back soon and time will pass very quickly and I'll enjoy meeting friends and family again :)

Ok then, that was a very short update, now I need some lunch before I'll leave home for university, hope this week will be better than the last one..

See you guys !!

way too much snow..

This morning I woke up, ready to have my last two days at work and guess what I saw looking out the window.. SNOW ! and not just some snow, no we had 30cm new snow..

Instead of shoveling all that snow from the garage up to the street I decided to take the bus, but I still had to walk 20minutes in stormy weather-not that what I really like :-P

Anyway, even the bus was too late so I arrived at school 8.15 where I actually start 8.10 but the kids where also late so no problem, one bus was even stuck in the snow so they arrived around 9am.

  Homewards I was very lucky cause I asked if someone could give me a ride home so slipped waiting for the bus and another 20minutes walk in the deep snow :)

So yeah, my last day at school tomorrow, not really happy it was really fun, today some girls said that I'm the queen of germany haha :-D

first snow !! tuesday 12.october

When I went to work this morning the streets where a bit white and when I arrived in norsjö i realized that it was snow cause it was almost everywhere there, but nothing at home, not that far away but still a big difference.. But it was gone by lunchtime and we will see when the snow will come back again.

Better than last year there we had snow in the end of september. Have to say that we had a really nice autumn this year, colourful and sunny so thats nice :)
The temperature is between -3° during the night and around 5°C by day, last week we had up to 10°C but i think this is over now.

Not that I think that anyone really cares about the weather but I can remember then next year cause I always ask myself how it was before and cant remember at all :D maybe I should write it down every day, weather and temperature :D

news

This weekend was not really different, after a week at work you just want to relax but still have to do the other stuff for university. So I continued reading and writing stuff and took the time to have some company (besides my dogs), wine and food :-P they came back from shopping when they picked me up so we decided to eat pizza and bought a lot of sweets :-P after that movie as far as I can remember and a lot of wine and for some reason I cant stand more than two glasses but somehow I had a bit more :D
On sunday morning (well, it was about lunch time :-P ) I tried moose meat for the first time and I actually dont like that kind of meat but I have to say that it was really good :-o And for some reason is everybody really into carrying me around haha :-P maybe I should eat more? ;-)

statue of liberty?

So now its monday again and its the last week at school (well, at work) for me, quite sad about it cause I really love this weeks where we're out for work, I feel more and more that this is really what I want to be lateron :) SO I'll just enjoy the last week with the kids :)

girls girls girls

last week I went out for some tea an cake with friends, Elin and Lena.
Lena is from germany and exchangestudent here in norsjö, imagine that people really can end up here so far in the north haha :D yeah, snow will come and very soon i promise, and cold will it be :D
anyway I had a nice time with the girls and I'm looking forward to the next time with Elin *awesome*, Lena *the cookie* and me *terrific* :-P

elin the awesome :D

and lena the cookie :-P

update

not really much going on here at the moment, last week I went to university but it turned out to be totally useless so I went home on the second day, just waste of money I have to say but thats life, I still saved some

money so thats well something good :)

otherwise I always meet my friends, just came home and I'm glad that someone is at least taking care of me when it comes to food, otherwise I'd well just eat cornflakes, bread and chips haha :-P

And the dogs are very tired today, they enjoyed the company yesterday and 4 dogs in one bed is quite funny I have to say, even if Finouk always wanted to play with the rest and maybe slept just 2hours tonight, but nobody was really eager to play with her so she always came into the bedroom with some new stuff, caps, pants and so on :-p The first time she really calmed down was after breakfest on the sofa and now she sleeps in her bed and I dont think that she'll wake up before dinner tonight =D So I'm quite lazy myself even if I actually have enough to do, tomorrow I'll start to work for 3wks so that will be nice, this time its a pre-school with older kids so that will be fun, really looking forward :)

Anyway, feel really good at the moment so even studying is not that boring :)

09.09.2010 girls eve

Sorry I'm a bit lazy at the moment but I promise that I'll keep you up to date and not just weeks after it =D



Bitz och Zpike

So I spent time with Johanna again, we're kind of coming through all these movies by watching one or two when I'm there, but I guess we'd have to watch several movies every single day, but I can say that this is just not possible ;-) But first of all we went out for a walk with her sweet babyboy Gabriel (6months by now) and Greger's dogs Bitz and Zpike. After that it was time to watch Idol and make some food, and for all you out there who don't know, I'm not the best cook I have to say :-D But I somehow managed it. Well I have to say it was not that difficult to make pancakes but it still was my fist time :-P Well they were not that bad, so after way too many pancakes we were quit filled up and watched a movie (gosh sorry, I really can't remember the movie, neither the name =D

But it was funny, that's what I can remember and thats the point isn't it-to have fun? ;-) And I have to say that it's always funny with her, nice to have some company and to watch good movies, and even food :-P The dogs where laying on us all the time, they're very cosy and sweet and if they look at you with their big brown eyes.. hmm, you can't resist :) I really can't imagine a life without dogs anymore =) So as you can see, it was a funny evening as always and I guess I'm improving my cooking, I'll may open a restaurant haha, omg better not *lol* It's enough to manage days, weeks and months, I'm not really the cooking type so I hope that my future husband or whatever can cook because I can't. Poor kids, I've gotta marry a rich guy as well so that I could take them out for dinner every day :-D