x-mas 2010

the sweetest of us, gabriel =)

Our christmas started already on thursday, 23.12 with something that's called julbord (christmasfood :P ) at johannas place, I was entertaining gabbe while greger and johannna took care of the dinner, and I have to say it was a lot ! couldn't move afterwards.. Not use to have so much food for christmas in germany, so I tried a lot of new things ;)

So totally filled up I had to relax on the sofa before we continued with the dessert ;) I'm not quite sure anymore but we probably watched a movie before greger and I went home to open our x-mas presents right after midnight ;) we watched another movie until we fell asleep and went to bed around 3am :-P we planned to go to sth in the church next day (24th dec.) 7am (!!!). why does something start 7am?? crazy..
anyway, we got dressed with a lot of clothes cause it was around -25°, on our way out we met a neighbour but he said its tomorrow.. -.-" don't blame me, I've never been there, greger said it was that day :P So we went to johanna instead to eat breakfast, dont think she was so happy do wake up around 7.30, but we actually went all back to bed/sofa. about one hour later we had breakfast ;)
After that she left with gabriel to visit her family in umeå and we went to pick up tobias and rebecca, after that we went to the city (skellefteå) to celebrate x-mas with gregers brother and his daughter

 

tv addicted? ;)

First we had lunch before we opened the presents, after that we visited baccas and tobbes grandparents which also live there. We had some sweets and cookies before we went back to his brother for dinner :-P I probably put on several kilos ;) (and that was only the beginning of all that food ;) later that evening we had a lot of wine and beer, cookies, chips and so on =) it was a nice day, very funny and I enjoined, even got a present from becca, so sweet =) Went home around 3am cause the kids were off to finland with her mother and husband to celebrate there as well. Greger and I continued sleeping until 3pm ;) then some tv and off to johanna again for food =D she left to meet some friends then so we were just sitting there being tired (well, he was playing computer ;)

In the evening we first went out to a houseparty before leaving for the x-mas party in the "Medan". Its funny I have to say if I compare it with parties in my hometown, well, its a big city and Norsjö is just a small town ;) Anyway, we had some more drinks, met a lot of people and when it was over around 1am we picked up Johanna from the other x-mas party at the hotel before we went back to watch some SG1 before falling asleep..

A bit tired the next day (26.12) we didn't do much honestly, had a calm day before having dinner with gregers sister and family, played some playstation and had a nice get-together, went home after that, watched a movie, now blogging and soon bed I think,  time for the serious stuff tomorrow again before 2011, actually dont wanna think about all I have to do =( 

Well then, have to say I had a nice christmasweekend with my beloved, thank you all =)

 

A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be.

Got the best surprise ever yesterday =) When I came home from Hapkido training I had a package and I was really surprised cause I didn't expect any package and espacially not here because I'm not at home. So my sweet friend Anne who's in Stockholm right now sent me that package =) Great isn't it? Cheez doodles for me (yeah ok I admit it, I really love them :-P ), Toffifee for those who take care of me at the moment and support me, some more chocolate for me and a candle stick for christmas mood that I don't have at all. Sweet isn't it? I'm so happy to have so many friends that really care about me and support me, I almost cried haha :-P Really something I needed after all that shit and some stupid conversations today.. Thanks Anne, really happy about it, love you girl :-*

So that was yesterday..Now we only have 2 days left, crazy isn't it?
Yeah well, today.. As usually (at the moment at least) I couldn't sleep the night, guess I really fell asleep around 5 or 6am :-/ before that I wake up like ever 15/30 minutes :-( So I'm tired alll day and don't really manage any studies, that really annoys me.. So I got out of bed around 10:00, cleaned up a bit and started to study while waiting for Greger coming home for lunch. After that I followed him to work, we (ok, he :P) installed a dishwasher and a stove, then we bought some pizza for dinner and i took care of gabbe and joel ;) while he was out for a last job he had to do today.
But Gabriel was not really eager to sleep, so he was still awake when johanna came home from work around 10pm. After that we all watched a movie "IP man" and had chips :-P
Now its past midnight and I'm home again, will go to sleep now cause I'm going to meet a friend tomorrow =)

<3

statistics

checked my statistics for thev very first time I have to say and am impressed that people all over the world at least looked at my blog :P
ok yeah, most of them are from Sweden and Germany, then America, Canada and Denmark, but I was surprised by several invocations from Czech, Peru, Croatia and Russia =D how funny is that? xD

the most invocations got my entry "a real man doesn't love a million girls, he loves one girl a in a million ways..
and today my blog got 32 invocations !! :-O

impressive :) nice to know I have to say =) thanks for reading my blog, leave a comment if you like ;)

a new week

greger was probably bored :P

Woke up 10:30 cause I actually had an appointment 11:00 but he called me and said me I should come tomorrow again :-P I was so tired cause I couldn't really sleep that night, fell asleep around 3:30 and woke up again cause I dreamt something about babies, lol. So I went back to bed, thought I could sleep at least maybe one hour.. woke up around 3pm cause greger came =D So we spent some time home, visited his sister and after that he took me out for dinner :) So totally filled up we bought some chips and movies, watched two of them. First "kung fu hustle" and after that "V for Vendetta". Both very good, the first one very funny and the last one was just good even if I didn't see the whole movie cause Greger was very eager to show me some pressure points !!! Now I've got bruises, great xD but he showed me so I could actually defend myself hehe ;) But I still like him ;) Really love to spend time with him =) But when you're in love, make sure that you don't forget your friends <3

Ok so after some wonderful hours I skyped with one of my beloved cousins and had fun as always =) miss her, a lot <3 hope that I have money for visiting some of my family and friends next summer, I was in berlin summer'09, 3 weeks and it was terrific! just as always. :-* 

Christmas is coming closer, only 4 days left, can you imagine?? And I do not really feel like x-mas at all this year :-/ But we'll have fun, sure about that =) will celebrate with greger, his kids and his brother, one day we'll celebrate at the norsjö hotel,  lot of cosiness, just how its gotta be <3 So looking forward I have to say, even if I don't really feel like x-mas but it will me days with beloved people, and our first x-mas together, feels kinda good I have to say =)

Ok then, I say good night now, or should I eat more? :-P hmm, we still have cheez doodles ;)
*snowing all day and around -17° today*

sunday, sunday, lazy sunday..

didn't do much today as you probably can imagine. woke up around 12:00 becca kinda 30minutes later, I shoveled some snow, had a shower and brought becca to a friend, the volvo didn't die =D
After that, yeah well, I had late lunch, washed my clothes, studied and actually just wanted to relax a couple of minutes but I fell asleep around 6pm and woke up one hour later cause someone called me xD

So now I'm sitting here, totally tired and wonder if I should go back to sleep or if I should watch a movie? But it will probably be a movie, feels wrong to go to bed now, a early sunday evening ;) heard that there's a good movie tonight 9pm, so I have to think of something to do the last hour.. I could.. cuddle the dogs.. but I guess I'll eat something :-P

So, that was my short sunday, now only some days left and then its x-mas, time is fleeting :-/

friday and saturday

tried to solve problems today but it didn't really work, so sick of all these people that are not able to do their job *grrr* anyway, I'll somehow manage it and I'm glad to have people around me that help =) <3

In the afternoon I met my boyfriend, we had dinner with his sister and family, after that training again, was very funny today, we played rugby quite a while and it doesn't help to be fast there cause we're playing it inside so on our knees, otherwise I'd be much better :-P
After that we went home to take a long and hot bath, you really feel every single muscle haha
After that a calm evening infront of the tv with becca as well, then whisky at the neighbours place (well, wine for me :-P ) and 5 very big dogs haha :-P

We went to bed 4 am and I have to say that I'm really tired now :-P
I was lucky saturday morning (well it was about lunch time ;) but anyway I got breakfast in bed, that was nice =) really happy, got the feeling that I found someone very special <3

After that another soft day ;) hey its weekend, so stop complaining, I'm working hard monday to..thursday :-P
Later that afternoon we had a coffee break (well, tea time sounds better cuz there was nothing to have a break ;) with my mother, even if we had some problems to get there, stupid volvo didn't wanna work :-P

curly hair =D

back home again i started to have a girls night with becca, just the two of us-and the dogs ;)
So you can probably imagine, lots of sweets and a movie =) now she even got curly hair, looks good, very sweet =) lateron we skyped with my dad and my cousins for some hours, becca could train her german and my family swedish :-P
so thats what girls do when they're alone =D
Now we're sitting infront of the tv, still a lot of sweets left but we have some hours left as well ;) even if I start to be really tired right now, will probably go to bed soon, gotta study tomorrow =)

otherwise we hav -13° and a LOT of snow, it snowed the last 3 days and it doesn't seem to have an end :-(

Anyway, good night world!

stupid office sitters

tried to solve my problem today but nope, they probably didn't really feel like helping me, I dunno why I even had an appointment today, they could have told me directly that they cannot help me, so typical for local authorities..

Yeah after that disappointment I went to see Johanna, was out for a walk with her and Gabbe, ofc it had to snow today as well, but we were lucky and had at least only -4°
So walking and having a chat, was a while ago I have to say, but had a lot to do these past weeks..
Had lunch with her and Greger, he's gotta new haircut since yesterday, johanna did it ;) looks good indeed, but I like it when the hair is a bit longer and normaly I think guys look a bit..weird :-P when they just had a haircut ;)
But don't get me wrong, he still looks good haha ;)
Greger gave me a ride home, before that we picked up a laptop and I was stunning when this guy suddenly started with german haha :-P

Didn't do much more today, don't feel like studying but I guess I've gotta do it tomorrow then ;)
Now I have even bigger problems, 400 games on that x-box LOL
But I guess that I'll go to bed soon, have two dogs here that wanna have my company, me like =)
Tomorrow hapkidotraining and then some time with Greger this weekend, just the two of us <3

one wish..

if i could have just one wish,

i would wish to wake up every day,

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine..

knowing that i could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.

tuesday

and another birthday =D today its my grandfathers 81.birthday (my dads father) so congrats !! ;)
there'll be a big b-day party in berlin this weekend with family and friends and where am I? the cold north, studying :-/

woke up around 10:00 and fell asleep again haha, so I woke up again around 12:00 cause someone asked me if I wanna sleep all day =D could be because of all the stress right now or just because of that wonderful bed ;)
but as I said, still stressed but I have to say I actually could not feel better concerning certain things at least.. So after trotting out of my bed to eat something I continued studying as usual, had several cops of tea, food and tried to fix my stupid internet, took almost 2hrs and I was quite.. lets say annoyed !!
Glad that Johanna stopped by to ask if I wanna follow, Greger and the kids where there too so he forced me to eat with them as well (and I just had dinner at home :-P so you can imagine how filled up I was when we left for training ;) but that was over quite soon, really enjoy training, especially doing something at all, always liked martial arts but never..yeah, did it :-P But its never too late ;)

After that I watched a movie with greger and johanna, sorry but I already forgot the name of the movie haha, it was not that bad but I was more busy with eating popcorn, chips, chocolate and all these other stuff lol. But I remember what it was about, don't think that I wouldn't ;)

So now I'm at home, laying in my bed and am actually on my way to sleep, hope I wont wake up that late tomorrow as well =D really need to do things !!

Good night everyone!!
I see you on the dark side of the moon

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weather: this week it was kinda cold, around -20 up to -26° but sunny..
saw that its gonna be "warmer" and snow in the end of the week..

just another manic monday.. 13.12.2010

today its my fathers birthday, 50 yrs!! congrats old man ;-) unfortunately I cannot be there because of a lot of work for university and my biggest problem is that I don't have money for this either because I've just been in germany for my grandparents golden wedding :-/ but one thing you have to know dady, we'll rock your 60. b-day, thats for sure =D

Studied hard today, reading my boring books until my sweetheart (trying to find other words for boyfriends cause it sounds weird, if you know sth tell me =D ) tried to scare my while suddenly jumping into my room :-P was listening to music as well so I didn't hear him coming either ;)
Had dinner then and talked about everything possible, he showed me some of his female facebook friends in case I'd worry about all his young female facebookfriends, I didn't even think about it that way lol and I don't think that I have to worry either ;-) But I'm lucky to have someone who's honest, something a lot of people don't really care about anymore but honesty and trust are the most important things in a relationship =)

So this week will be.. hm, dunno, I'll probably study, then training as usual, cuddle-evening infront of the tv after training with Greger tomorrow and then I'll help Johanna to move to her new appartment =)

Chatted with a close friend today, really miss her :-/
Now I'll continue facebooking before I go to bed, good night! =)

weekend

On friday I finally got some off my stuff so I could continue working with my things from university but I have to say that I didnt really felt like doing sth friday afternoon so I decided to do.. nothing :-P In the evening I visited Johanna before it was time to train some hapkido again, I did my nails *lol* you may think thats weird but I actually just did sth so that it wont hurt during the training, they were quite long :D
Hapkido as usual, you feel every single muscle, especially if you didn't really do anthing the past 2 yrs besides walking, jogging or inline-skating with  the dogs ;-)
We trained some technics, how to fall without hurting yourself and how to make your across from you fall :-P We even played rugby, not normal rugby, but rugby, so thats something I like =D

On saturday I tried to study a bit more but it ended up drawing and solving some sudoku's but at least I did sth ;)
The evening did I spend with Greger, we visited his father and girlfriend and then a friend of him from stockholm stopped by to have a couple of beers before he fell asleep on the couch =D

On sunday we were all a bit... tired :-P but I was awake when little gabriel started to slobber on me haha =D After that we (means Johanna, Gabbe, Becca, Greger and my humble self :-P) went to Skellefteå to help Gregers sister moving from her appartment to a house, later that evening we noticed that we didn't eat anything at all since yesterday evening, so we had some burgers and french fries for dinner.

So a nice and calm weekend with tasty food, new people and fun =)
Soon its time for x-mas, even if I actually don't really feel like it, maybe I'll stay at home to study, enough to do anyway :-P

tuesday_hapkido

Had a funny afternoon 'cuz I tried a sport called hapkido today, its a korean martial art, and my boyfriend is the trainer so he convinced me to join, really enjoyed it =)
He was though the onlyone that got hurt hehe, so now he's got a notch above his right eye ;) he always reckon that he's Jet Li but I'm not really convinced I have to say ;)

After that we went home to take a shower and watched a movie, well we tried at least, was not really sth good on tv so I decided to hit him with pillows, way more fun =D
Could even sleep a bit better after all that what happened these past days, he embraced me all night and it felt good to have someone close these days =) Really enjoy being with him <3

So far I don't have muscle ache but will see when I get it, at least he'll have it first ;-P
Looking forward to the next training, they have it 3times a week, its good to do sth else now where I can forget all these thoughts for one moment and just have fun =) On friday I'll beat up his son =D

weekend

had a good weekend I have to say, spent my time with greger and kids, felt a bit like being "mother" haha because johanna worked so the youngest was with us all the time =) a really sweet one I have to say, love kids =) maybe the reason why I'm becoming a teacher? ;-)
But he didn't sleep so much, he woke up quite often but so are toddlers ;-)

So in the evening we were invited at his mothers place for dinner, was very good and very enjoyably (enjoyably?)
The rest of the time I tried to study for my exam I have monday to friday, then I played playstation with tobbe and had a quite calm weekend with my beloved.


Happy to have people around me that really like me and care about me <3

random

really sick of this boring books, how can you even write something like this? and who wants to read it??? I don't I have to say but unfortunately I have to :( not so much left, only one book and a few pages of the otherone, will try to read as much as possible today so that I can spend the weekend with my darling before the exam next week.

Was not so cold these past days I have to say, we had only around -6° and the same snow left, not that much either but ok by me :-P just not so easy to get out with the dogs and sledge so thats not sooo good but I'll survive I guess ;) Its worse in germany, they have up to -18° and a lot of snow, unbelievable, they always tell me I live at the northpol and now? Look at you haha, colder and more snow in germany as in the north (!) of sweden..

Will be in Arvidsjaur for my mothers birthday, guess it will be fun or I at least hope so haha :D
I actually don't like the christmas time, so many presents you have to buy and unfortunately a lot of my friends and family do even celebrate thier birthday around x-mas :( It's especially hard to buy something for men, I'd always find something for female friends and family but men? Out of ideas :( So if you have ideas let me know ;) I don't have money, but I can give love and company haha :D

So as I already said exam next week and after that a dear friend of mine who is in Stockholm right now will visit me for some days :) really looking forward to this, will be fun and there's finally someone visiting me besides my dad *lol*. Well, I guess I moved too far north ;) But I like it =) and I wouldn't have met certain people I really care about =) And I do not only talk about guys :-D But friends, very kind and sweet friends =) Sure I miss my friends in germany a lot, but I know they're always there for me, doesn't matter how far away I am :) I don't see them that often but it feels good to know that they're there for me when I need them and I give the same in return :) Since I moved here you really know which friends are true friends and who of them was just "there" for a short moment, you don't care that much about these kind of people, I don't need to have superficial friends..
But its a pity with some of them. People you thought were close all the time, people that always cared and listened and suddenly they disappear without reason.. No answers when you send messages, no time for you, always "busy".. That's the thing that hurts most. When you thought to have a true friend that just pop off from one day to the other..
Seems like I have a bad insight into human nature or they're just perfect actors.. Such a shame.. Especially if you really like them and thought they feel the same..
But life goes on and they're just not worth it, as I said, I have friends that really care <3

studying

Oh boy, the first two books where quite ok, but the last two books.. well, they really look boring from the beginning, small text, a lot of text and no pictures =D the otherone was better, a lot of pictures so less text and actually not that boring. And because of my lack of time I decided to use colourful post-it's ;) so I skip to write it down, even if that would be much better but as I said, not so much time, two books with 250 pages each (and really boring as I already mentioned) and 4 days left, beside that I have to do sth else as well and want to have at least one day with my beloved this week. So actually not that much here, I hardly leave my bed, just for food and other needs. Its way more comfortable to read here and I don't have to write anything down beside some notes where I find certain things. Ok then, off to work again :(

Some love lasts a lifetime. True love lasts forever.

But what is love? The feeling of a stong affection? A personal attachment?
Love is so complex with all that feelings involved that makes it even more difficult to really find a clear answer..
And how do you actually know that you're in love? Can you always tell? Can you differentiate between a very strong feeling and true love? Is it even possible nowadays to really find true love?

"True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

But to love somebody and to be loved is the greatest thing you can experience, so if you really find true love, then you're really lucky. Love can last a lifetime, but true love lasts forever.

Unfortunately does it happen way too often that you get dissapointed, and once you have these feeling inside of you, of this disillusion you can lose faith and hope..
But don't give up, keep on searching, there will be someone for you, somewhere out there, but be sure that it's the right thing you do. Don't get yourself through something just because you feel lonely or left behind.
And even to like somebody is something different.
The feeling of love is much stronger. Take your time, time to trust, time to find a way back into love, into real love. Don't listen to others, listen to your heart. What does it tell you? Do you feel good? Does it feel right?

And if you find that special someone-hold on to him. You will know that its him.
Let him become a part of your life, let him make you smile, let him make you feel good and give that in return.
But be carefull with your heart; and always remember:
Love does not exist, but it can grow..

was it love, or was it the idea of being in love?
or was it the hand of fate,

that seemed to fit just like a glove?
the moment slipped by and soon the seeds were sown
the year grew late

and neither one wanted to remain alone 

Pink Floyd "one slip"